Yesterday I went to the gym at 5am for Spinning and 2.5 quick (8:01 pace!) miles on the TM. Then, I worked. ALL DAY. As in-- pretty much non-stop. I ate lunch at my desk. As I kept working. I worked from 7:45am-8:45pm. Pretty much non-stop. Ok, I mean-- I didn't work when I drove to my house and I did take a 20 minute break to eat dinner, but other than that: I worked.
Phew. I'm beat. Today will be another buuuusy and late day. And, tomorrow, even busier (though HOPEFULLY not late!). Thursday, same.
OF COURSE! The one week I'd like to be as chill and dead-zone at work as possible is the one week it's CRAAAZY. That's my luck. I expected it.
Luckily, I took Friday off as a mental health/prep day. I plan to veg most of the day and do as little as possible, while eating as much as possible. OK, that's only half true. I'll let you decide which half.
Anyway, I'll try to do an update soon. I had a great weekend I'd love to share about, a confident-destroying "long" run Saturday (at a 9:00 average pace), and I have a ton of in-general thoughts about to explode out of my overly-filled head. But, all that'll have to wait for now.
Sorry for the down-er-ish post. I'm overwhelmed and stressed to the max. I can't believe this thing is THIS SUNDAY. I feel unprepared. I feel stress to make the whole race be SO MEANINGFUL. I feel stress to make everyone who's coming to see me race have a great experience. I feel stress about... everything? I legit almost broke down into overwhelmed with life tears sitting at my desk yesterday. Wowza. I'm kinda a mess. Ugh. I'm a whiner today. Sorry!!!!
This woe-is-me-craziness will fade. I promise! I'm in a slight funk, but I know I'll kick myself out of it very soon. Work'll calm down and I have 2 rest days Thursday and Friday. I can do this. I know I can. I know I will.
Ok... gotta get back to work. Again. Still. Whatever.
Hang in there Meagan. It sounds like you have a bad case of the taper tantrums going on. Don't worry, I get them too. Just try to stay calm (I know that this is hard) and don't think about race day right now. You have had weeks to think about it so just relax a little. Trust me it is easier for me to dish out the advice than take it- I have the worst taper tantrums ever. I go into b*tch mode the week prior to a race. My poor hubby!
ReplyDeleteYes, I think I am definitely suffering from the taper crazies. I actually found myself lying in bed last not googling it because I couldn't sleep. DANGER! Oh well! The taper ends SUNDAY and will hopefully all be worth it!!!
DeleteThanks for the kind words!! Definitely makes me feel better knowing it's noraml and other people FREAK OUT too! :)